Happy St Patrick's Day 2010  / Mama
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Thank you for your loving support!  / Dianne/Mom Of Angel Nicholas White (Connected by Angels )
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~THINKING OF YOU~  / BECKY..MOTHER TO FFF JARRETT LITTLE (ANGEL FRIEND )

 

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Happy 27th Birthday Amanda!  / B.J., Wayne And Buck
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Tommie and Ryan's Wedding 2/24/2010  / Mama
Well Buddy I went to Tommie's wedding and she sure made a beautiful bride. I know you would have been proud. Oh but B.J. it was so hard for me to be there. While I sat there waiting for it to start the tears started. All I could think is...you should have been there! Finally I turned around to Sister Mullins and told her to pray for me...then I lost it. She came and sat with me and prayed for me. I'm so glad she did...I didn't think I was going to be able to stay. After she prayed though a peace settled on me and I was able to enjoy it ok. I still wish you could have been there though.

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Our Coming Home Service  / Mama

We had a special "coming home" service today at church and it was awesome! From start to finish it was perfect. We got to see the Sellers, the Skeens and the Leonard's that we hadn't seen in a long while. Bret Skeens sang your song "Sing A Song" in memory of you B.J. and I was so blessed. For a little while at least there were at least 113 people that was thinking about you. That's awesome! And then the Leonard's sang "The Anchor Holds" for me and that was awesome too! I just love all those people and it was so good to see them again. This was the first time I was able to see them and not have meltdowns since you left. They were all your special friends B.J. and seeing them has always brought on the tears...but not this time! This time they could rejoice with me that the Lord has brought healing to my heart. Yesterday was one month since the sun started shinning in my world again...and it's still shinning! The Lord is just too good to me! And church was awesome!!! I'm just beside myself!
Oh and Sinjin and Lorna and John got to come!!! Yea for that! Sinjin had a great time and it was so good to see him enjoying himself! Oh the Lords good!

Buddy life is forever changd with you not here but I know you're glad the Lord is finally healing my heart. I love you just as much and I always will. And I miss you more every day...but the Lord is still so good...but then you know that don't you?

Love forever and always, Mama

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Happy Valentine's Day!  / Mama

I love my boys so much!

 

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Your Memory Lives On  / Mama For Wayne And Buck
My sweet Wayne and Buck. Remember when I told you that Daddy and I gave money to put together gift boxes in your memory for the families that lost their babies? Well today a cousin of mine (Sherri) sent me a note sayng she knows someone that got one of the packages. Here is here note...

Cindy I wanted to let you know that you & Bobby made a difference in someone's life. A lady that works for me her name is Ira. Her daughter went into labor and delivered her baby way to early. She received one of ya'lls memory boxes. I am friends with her and her family. When I saw the box I was able to tell her about ya'll and about the kids that it was in memory of. Just wanted ya'll to know that the memory box really helped her.

I'm so sorry others have to suffer this kind of loss but I'm thankful that your memories live on through the gifts we gave. I sure love and miss you my sweet boys.

Love Mama
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THINKING OF YOU  / BECKY..MOTHER TO FFF JARRETT LITTLE (ANGEL MOM )

 

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Happy Birthday Wayne and Buck  / Mama

Happy Birthday my sweet boys. I can't believe you would already be 24 years old. I love you both and miss you just as much.

Love forever and always Mama

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Happy Birthday Wayne & Buck....  / Martha Thompson ♪Jason♪ And Amanda's Mom (Angel Friend )

Happy Birthday Wayne and Buck!  Missed much and with lots of Love....♥ ♥

Hi Cindy

Just a little something to let you know I'm thinking of you as you remember 24 years ago and the "2 Miracles" that God gave bound for Heaven! Thoughts and prayers for you always my dear Friend!

It just got my attention tonight that Wayne and Buck would have been the same age as Amanda. She would have been just a couple of months older if Wayne and Buck had made it to their due time!

Although we don't know or understand why we do know that they will dwell so safely in Heaven with all things pure and right!  Hugs to you Cindy!xo

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Morning Will Come  / Mama

Morning Will Come



Brokenhearted...

How can I bear the pain?

So many dreams...shattered.

Hopes...dashed.

All gone.

Why?

Why this?

Why us? Why me?

Helplessness...hopelessness...

Life will never be the same again.

Is it even worth living?

Where are you God?

I'm right here beside you child.

Even though you may not feel my presence

I'm holding you close under the shadow of my wings.

I will walk you through this dark night.



Do not shrink from weeping.

I gave you tears for emotional release.

Don't try to hide your grief.

Let it become for you a source of healing.

A process of restoration

For I have planned it so.

Those who mourn shall be blessed

I'll be holding on to you

Even when you feel you can't hold on to me.



Seek my face my child of mine.

Receive my promise impossible as it may seem now

That joy will come in the morning.

It may take much time

But I will heal your broken heart.

I know the night seems endless

But Morning Will Come.

I have promised.



~~From the Haven of Rest Newsletter


I got this poem given to me at my support meeting the other night and there is a reason for my sharing it.

Yesterday was the first time since you left us B.J. that the sun shone in my world. I've had days that were "better" than others but never have I felt what I felt yesterday. It was like dark clouds rolled away and the sun shone bright on me. I can't even begin to explain what it was like. All I know is I told Sarah that I felt so good that it was almost sending me into shock. I felt true joy again...complete joy. It's still with me today. Then I remembered this poem and I think that is what has happened...my Morning Has Come. I still miss you and your little brothers just as much but something is different. A heaviness has lifted and I honestly feel like life is worth living again. It's been such a long hard road. I know the sadness will come again...I'm human and I want you boys with me. But I believe from this point on things will be different for me. I believe I'll have many more days of sun shine instead of darkness.
I've claimed the Lord's promises for a long time even when I didn't feel it even a little bit because I know it's not about what I feel but about his word being truth.
I don't even feel guilt for feeling better because if the healing has come from the Lord there is no reason for guilt. And besides I know you boys know what you mean to me and know how much I love and miss you. Healing of a broken heart has nothing to do with those things.
Tell Jesus thank you for me. And my heart tells me that you three boys probably had something to do with it so thank you to you too. I love you all so much.

Love Mama

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Happy Birthday Mama!  / B.J.~Wayne~Buck

Happy Birthday Mama

We love you bunches!

Love B.J. Wayne and Buck

 

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THINKING OF YOU BOY'S  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT

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Happy New Year 2010  / Mama

 

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Merry Christmas Boys  / Mama

Amanda and their family came today and we had Christmas dinner and afterwards opened presents. I sure wish you were here. I miss you so much. Kayla called to wish us all a Merry Christmas. This is the first one that she hasn't been home for...we sure miss her too.

I hope you like the flower arrangement Johnathan and I brought out to your grave. I think it's pretty. We brought you some more tamales and Dad brought you a Dr Pepper. I hope they made you smile.

It sure is cold today with the snow we've had. I wish you were here to see Sarah and Johnathan play in it. Can you see them from there? I hope so.

Merry Christmas in Heaven...I love you.

Love Mama

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Memories / Mama
Buddy for days now I've been having flashbacks of the days you were on dialysis and of that horrible life support machine. I'm not sure why that is happening. Maybe it's to remind me that you're well now but that's not helping much. All I know is you were here then and I wish you still were. I don't want you to be sick...I never wanted that. I just wish you could be here with me. I miss you so much.  It makes me sick...and so angry!

Love Mama
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The Legend of the Candy Cane  / Mama

The Legend of the Candy Cane

A candy maker in Indiana wanted to make a candy that would remind people of the true meaning of Christmas; so he made the candy cane to incorporate several symbols for the birth ministry and death of Jesus Christ. He began with a stick of pure white hard candy. White to symbolize the Virgin Birth and the sinless nature of Jesus and hard to symbolize the Solid Rock the foundation of the Church and the firmness of the promises of God.

The candymaker then shaped his cane into the form of a "J" to represent the precious name of Jesus who came to the earth as Savior. It could also represent the staff of the "Good Shepherd" with which He reaches down to to reclaim the fallen lambs who like sheep have gone astray.

Thinking that the candy was somewhat plain the candymaker stained it with red stripes. He used three small stripes to show the stripes of the scourging Jesus received. The large red stripe was for the blood shed by Christ on the cross so that we could have the promise of eternal life.

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Boys it's because of what Jesus did for us that I can be assured of where you are and that I will be with you again someday. For that I'm so very thankful.

Love Mama

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Candle Light Service Dec.13, 2009  / Mama

Sarah sang this song at the Candle Light Service last night. We're sure proud of her! I know you boys are too.

Love Mama

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~Merry Christmas 2009~  / Martha Thompson~ ♪Jason♪ &. Amanda's Mom (Angel Friend )

Merry Christmas to your Family from Ours!

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